Today I had an a-ha moment where I realized that I have been caught up in a big comparison game, I hadn’t even realized I was playing.
Lately a few social media sites had been showing some old friends looking fantastic and leading this amazing and very prosperous life. I was jealous. Every picture posted was perfect. Their children looked amazing and well adjusted and they showered them with amazing material possessions too. They themselves were going on countless trips and money certainly flowed very freely to them.
I was really jealous.
I wanted the material possession, the endless activities and vacations and I wanted to provide all of that to my children as well.
Then I met my old friend out in the world per chance and as I was describing my sons dislike for a particular school subject and she said hers does as well – I started to object because I had clearly just seen a picture of him doing this subject with captions that did not suggest even a hint of dislike by her son and then the lightbulb hit; I just saw a picture, I don’t know the whole story and I am comparing my whole story with a picture that’s not even an accurate portrayal.
It’s all smoke and mirrors.
Then I got thinking that in all honesty I know down in my heart that I have been comparing too much lately and that has been leading to jealousy, hate and frustration. I only have my complete story and that’s all I need to focus on. The way I live my life, my family, how I look – it only matters to me and I just need to focus on that and truly ignore the rest because the only full story I have is my own.